The memory of that morning will always be clearly etched in mind. I still remember looking at my reflection in the bathroom mirror and fixing my school tie.
Life was drab, broken, dark, empty, and sad. I had no hope, nothing excited me. Pressure was on. It was my final year at high school ~ I had to perform, make decisions, keep everything together neatly in a little box and still be able to answer questions like "What & where will you be studying next year?" I felt so alone, so confused. Home life was not the greatest. Relationships between everyone had always been rocky, before & after the big "D". Divorce visited our house in 1983. I was 10 years old and my two brothers were 4 and 2 at the time.
What did I have to look forward to? Where was I going? I had only been 17 years old for 2 months.
Life was drab, broken, dark, empty, and sad. I had no hope, nothing excited me. Pressure was on. It was my final year at high school ~ I had to perform, make decisions, keep everything together neatly in a little box and still be able to answer questions like "What & where will you be studying next year?" I felt so alone, so confused. Home life was not the greatest. Relationships between everyone had always been rocky, before & after the big "D". Divorce visited our house in 1983. I was 10 years old and my two brothers were 4 and 2 at the time.
What did I have to look forward to? Where was I going? I had only been 17 years old for 2 months.
I'd had a bad argument with my brother the night before; nothing new really but for some or other reason I just felt extra down in the dumps that morning. I was wrestling with the idea of whether I should go to school or not ~ eventually I decided to push through and go to school – so glad that I did!
Our school Principal took us for RI (Religious Instruction) in our matric year – this caused us to actually do something substantial during that period (instead of just catching up on our homework!) He had invited a guest speaker that day – Pastor Jimmy Crompton.
Pastor Jimmy played an audio recording of a telephonic conversation between a young girl named Rebecca & a Christian Radio DJ. Rebecca was in tears, frantic & desperate – she was begging the DJ to help her. Her parents were satanists and were planning to sacrifice her on the night of halloween. They had been waiting for her to turn 13 years old before they could do this. The DJ prayed with her and took charge of the situation. As soon as the DJ mentioned the name of Jesus in his prayer, Rebecca’s voice changed and she began growling like a wild, vicious animal. The DJ took authority over the demonic spirits. The demons were extremely angry & threatened by his prayer. They were so afraid of the name of Jesus……. They had to obey when the name of Jesus was mentioned.
I sat there shell-shocked, what I was hearing was unbelievable! It was almost as if an invisible world around me had become real and I was standing at a crossroad. Pastor Jimmy spoke to us afterwards and I remember him saying that we had the choice to be born again and to follow Jesus. He said that we were either living in God’s Kingdom or we were living under satan’s influence in the kingdom of darkness. This scared the living “darkness” out of me ….. I knew that I was not living in Gods Kingdom and I was as desperate as Rebecca to find the truth and to be set free.
An appeal was made to a group of matrics in June 1990. We were asked to decide whom we would serve. I chose Jesus and have never looked back.
He came in to my life gently & yet with such force ~ just what I needed. He shone His light and love into all of the dark, lonely places within my heart. He gave me a reason to smile, a future, purpose and a hope!
So glad I went to school that morning in 1990……who would have known that I had an appointment with the King?
If you meet me & forget me, you have lost nothing. If you meet Jesus and forget Him, you have lost everything .......
Salvation Prayer
I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.
You said in Your Holy Word, Romans 10:9 that if we confess the Lord our God and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved.
Right now I confess Jesus as the Lord of my soul. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved.
Thank you Jesus for your unlimited grace which has saved me from my sins. I thank you Jesus that your grace never leads to license, but rather it always leads to repentance. Therefore Lord Jesus transform my life so that I may bring glory and honor to you alone and not to myself.
Thank you Jesus for dying for me and giving me eternal life. Amen.
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By the way, I found out yesterday, just after writing this blog, that the name of the Christian DJ I referred to is Bob Larson.
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